#AskStephanie: What if my first draft is terrible?
Allow yourself to be terrible!
You need to start somewhere.
Give yourself the grace period, the opportunity, the freedom of creating something completely, unabashedly, embarrassingly bad.
I know in your mind and in your heart, you will die a little inside when I tell you to start the e-book you've been dreaming about in a shitty Word document. Or to start your blog with one lone post.
I know your soul will cry out:
"No graphics? No formatting? Arial font?!"
But that's just perfectionism speaking.
Perfectionism is an emotional block, and a huge one at that.
It will never come out as the masterpiece you see in your mind right away...but that's not a bad thing. Because as soon as you surrender yourself to the idea that it will never be as perfect then get it down in physical form anyway, you will free yourself.
Not only will you have something physical to work with, but you'll open space in your mind for even bigger, better ideas. New opportunities will come into your life in a way they simply weren't able to before, when you had your blinkers on and were closed to new things.
Unless it's on paper, you're not in control of your idea, it's in control of you.
You might think you're protecting your idea from being ripped apart by the world, but really, your precious idea is holding you back from moving forward in your creative growth like a jealous boyfriend.
I'm not saying your idea can't ever be good. I'm saying that you need to bring it into the light before you can see what it really is right at this moment.
You need to analyse it under the magnifying glass, naked, expose its vulnerabilities, then when you realise that you love it anyway... you can truly commit to make it as awesome as it can be.
What you bring into the world won't ever be perfect...
But it can still be really, really good.
At first it will be terrible, but you can always make it better.