It starts here.
This legacy began eight years ago* with a particularly bad episode of “writer’s block”.
I’d been staring at the screen for hours, with my hands suspended over the keyboard and absolutely nothing coming out.
Now let me tell you, this is something that didn’t happen all too often. I’m the kind of person that has loved to write since, forever.
I’d write every single day without fail, about anything and everything. I’d write songs, short stories, poems, novels…embarrassing diary entries. I’d write stories for my friends as birthday presents. I infused every part of my life with my love of writing.
I was whole, then. I hadn’t yet encountered doubt or fear in my creative life. There were no limitations. I was simply being, living my passion, and that’s how it starts for all creative people.
Until the world reaches out and snatches your confidence away piece by piece, then suddenly you’re not so whole anymore.
Can you relate?
It starts with the look you get from your career counsellor at school when you first talk about your dreams. Or the worry in your parents voices when you tell them you want to work in the creative industries. It all mounts up until, for the first time in your life, you’re questioning things. You’re thinking: maybe it really isn’t possible to make a living as a writer. Maybe they’re right, and I’m wrong.
On this day, it all caught up with me. I’m sure we’ve all experienced that, right? A time in our lives where, if you aren’t fighting your own insecurities, you are fighting all the insecurities of others.
In my head, there were all these questions like, am I good enough? Will I ever be good enough? Then there were people telling me that writing wasn’t a “real” career; that it wasn’t something I would be able to make anything out of, that I was fighting an uphill battle I probably wouldn’t win and that I should probably do something else.
But when I thought about the life I’d have to live if I gave into my fears and gave up writing, I couldn’t BREATHE.
It was unthinkable.
I had to figure out a solution or I wouldn’t survive.
I didn’t want to feel that way.
I knew I could either sit there and let the fears get the best of me, or I could psych myself up, and find a way to ensure that I NEVER felt so helpless or disempowered ever again.
If there’s a #wholewriter inside you, giving up isn’t an option.
A #wholewriter is the term I coined in my book for the person inside of you who is not afraid. The strongest, bravest, healthiest version of you. The person who knows writing is something you will hunger and strive toward forever because it’s what you are destined to do, how you are destined to show up in this world.
As I sat in front of that keyboard, flexing my fingers, willing something — anything — to come out onto the keyboard, I had my important revelation. The thing I’ve used to transform my entire creative life, the thing that might changes yours right now, today, here it comes:
All creative problems are emotional.
Through all of my self-doubt, even in my darkest moments…
Nothing about my ability had changed.
The rate I could produce work didn’t change.
Nothing changed except the way I felt, and that changed everything.
That was the break I needed and somehow, suddenly — just as fast as the words had cut out in my brain did they suddenly come streaming out again through my fingertips and haven’t stopped since. That day completely saved my life.
I pulled my consciousness (kicking and screaming), through its own journey of self-transformation that freed me from fear and allowed me to finally reconnect with my #wholewriter, write over 160+ stories, poems and plays, win national awards and feel confident and fulfilled in my work every single day.
What I produced then also became my guiding philosophy for everything I now stand for — the comprehensive, step-by-step guide to removing the mental, emotional and spiritual barriers that I know are preventing you from leading the life you were born to lead…as well as the other movements and my own personal projects that I teach and share today.
My aim is to build the #1 holistic platform for creatives in the world, and a global tribe of beautiful creatives — combatting fear and isolation and transforming it into confidence, success and empowerment.
Your emotional state can always be changed back, for the better. You can always find your way back to wholeness.
And I’m just here to show you how.
*Obvs, this number should keep increasing but I only do it when I remember. Yes I’m getting old, no need to go on about it.
